It was for the first time in a week that my regular alarm wasn’t the reason. For normally I get up only when my cell phone shrieks horrendously into my ears in the morning, challenging my biological clock, which is always in a crisis. But not this time, in fact, I got up on my own, without any alarm.
As I got up and sat on my bed with my yellow squared bed sheet printed with navy blue flowers on my lap, my hair open and falling down my shoulders, artistically tangled, I realized, I'm beautiful. It was just a thought that filled me with sheer enchantment. A thought, an enticing thought, an alluring thought, an intelligent thought. It was just a random thought and I could almost sense the consequences. All of a sudden everything became beautiful and my world changed....temporarily though...I wish I could have taken that feeling longer...but then its like that..the semblance is never the same..The feel is tranquilising though...the feel..
I can't really remember the genesis, but I could remember the sensation of looking and feeling beautiful and how it lingered, across the meninges, through my veins, on the surface...and all through my mind.
Dawn, with darkness spread like dust particles, a blurry fringe of a light, dictating my existence, made me realise that I am beautiful. Was this unseen for years???....maybe...I always knew I was beautiful, but never realised that. But now, I did. Realisation is more important than knowing. In fact it's the only way to get into the meaning deeper and better. The earlier you realize, the better you become. Good, I realised..It gave me a vision that things happen, good or bad, your conscience alerts you, then you realize the consequences and life gets better.
All of a sudden....things changed..
My gold ring, in ruby, which was very normal sometime back, became beautiful. It shone brilliantly as it never had before. Moreover, my hand was no more a body part, it became a beautifully sculptured piece of art and a gift of God, and I felt blessed. I was sailing across the vast ocean of my feelings. I felt like I was one step closer to my true self..my real strength. I was undiscovered, until then...still on my way to discover something..This unconscious introspection was an envision...
In front of the mirror, amidst the sun breaking into the darkness, to shine brightly, I stood. I moved closer and closer until I could peep into my very own reflection. My soul. My heart. My existence. Glints of yellow light filled up my room, an evidence of what I was feeling..and I stood there, in front of the mirror, analyzing my own reflection and concluding...I'm beautiful.
Things changed after that....
" You can make new discoveries only if you lose sight of the shore." *
Losing the sight of the shore came as a bliss.
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[PS- * anonymous]
