"Why not?", she asked.
"I don't have an inspiration. I had you before, but not anymore", he replied.
"So what different did I do then?"
(She never got her answer)
She told herself: When they were together she didn't do anything that could have added any value to him or his life in anyway. She thought so. She's still the same from what she thinks. And now that they are no more together, she doesn't see a difference in her actions as compared to the previous times. So what made the difference? What changed?
Nothing from her side, she thought. It was him who made the difference. It was his sole perception and image of her that changed and made the difference. His perception was different then, it voluntarily changed later. He believed her to be someone then, but not anymore. Though she's still the same from her side, to him, to herself.
He thought she was his muse, but that's past now. It's all about him and she's no where. Not that she's complaining, but only wondering that was she ever significant to him as a person or was she just an image that had a purpose? An image unaware of her own significance, if any. An image that was created by a mind to be discarded one day.
Just an image, a reflection.
The answer doesn't matter now.
We don't like to say it out loud, but its always an image, its always the impression of someone else that is precious to you, and not the other person.
ReplyDelete@Rene Lacoste-
ReplyDeleteAnd so powerful is the imagery that even the thought of letting go off the illusion is a seemingly unbearable loss.
There's nothing for real and still we live in fear.
Ahh!!!
Keep Writing
:)
Rather than the post, I found the accompanying picture more interesting. Did you paint it? If yes, I must say you're a great painter. The picture is wonderful.
ReplyDeleteNice Imagery a beautiful story... :)
ReplyDelete@ Aparajita- I didn't paint it but at least you found something interesting..!! Also I think, it's not a painting, but a sketch. Never mind.
ReplyDelete:)
@raj- Thanks :)
Keep Writing
nice writeup.
ReplyDeleteits the illusion thats powerful..in both extremes of emotion.
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sorcerer
www.evilsfury.blogspot.com
@Sorcerer-
ReplyDeleteThanks :)
Illusions are powerful indeed.
Keep Writing
Soooti yeh tune likha hain? because mujhe chori karna hain :)
ReplyDeleteVery good thought in this post. I agree that it is often the image of the person that we are in love with than the person itself. And when the image shatters, or the person does something that breaks that image, we are often ourselves shattered.
ReplyDeleteFact #1: People grow apart.
ReplyDeleteFact #2: Ideologies are upgraded/reworked/renewed/replaced.
Fact #3: More often than not, one scouts for things to blame. When in essence, there exists nothing to bear it with conviction.
Pity.
Loved the write-up though.
@ hola- Haan yaar maine hi likha hai. Main aur meri tanhaee :P
ReplyDeleteChura le, bas credit de diyo.. :P :P
@ NBF- But sometimes one fails to realize WHAT that image was; this could be more pinching, I think.
Thanks.
:)
@ Sherry-
ReplyDeleteFact#1- No doubt about that.
Fact#2- Couldn't possibly agree more..!
Fact#3- When people have nothing, they blame. When they have something, they blame. Sadly, the one who blames, does it with conviction.
Pity indeed.
Thanks.
:)
@ sherry and insider:
ReplyDeleteFact 4: People Will be people. And they will continue to call their 'self-justification' as being human.
@ Just me-
ReplyDeleteSelf justification, even though not desirable, is still human. That's a fact.
Bacterias and elephants don't justify themselves. Do they?
I wish I could be an elephant instead. :P
@ insider: may be because they don't need to, or may be they actually do; we just don't know. ;-)
ReplyDeleteand if it came to picking, I will go with humble bacteria. :-P :-D
One word to describe the post "Riveting"
ReplyDelete@Dravidian- Thanks for appreciating.
ReplyDelete:)
Keep Writing
"Keep writing" =)) social work chal raha hai kya? :P (I know Sherry would crinkle her nose at so many emoticons ;))
ReplyDeleteSo when you go out and meet people, greet them, touch them...doesn't it feel like hogwash? I'd find someone beautiful only if I'm in that frame of mind. If I don't feel like appreciating the world, I won't find beauty.
And its funnily ironical how people label you as a near-sociopath for this realisation.
Dear Rene Lacoste,
ReplyDeleteMy blog is not what Sherry thinks or for that matter what you think about anything except for my write-up. Avoid such frivolity.
Keep Writing is my way of encouragement irrespective of what anyone will think.
You already think that meeting people and other similar engagements is a hogwash and hence your mind can bear no other frame but this. Get over your biases first.
By not appreciating and not finding beauty outside, may be you are reciprocating to the world. A tit for tat..!
It's ironical indeed that you are even acknowledging people's reactions to your hogwash mentality. To hell with them! What do you care?
people... an entity we all want to own, a concept we discard. why? expectations? unfulfilment?
ReplyDeletethe answer ceases to matter. i can't infer, is it a happy end or a grave cliff?
@ Hola-
ReplyDeleteThere's no end to it. It's a feeling, an interpretation of the reality that existed. It exists because it should. It's a result of what goes on inside as an afterthought of something. It's a repercussion.
And true, any answer ceases to matter because an answer is not desired anymore.
Reminds me of Bryan Adams..."I'm not the man you think I am (But I'm the man for you)..."
ReplyDeleteYou've analyzed how the human mind works quite accurately.
ReplyDeleteIt's like this:
People want attributes number 1, 2 and 3 (however distinct from each other) in their 'ideal' lover. Also, they wouldn't want that person to possess attributes 4, 5 and 6. The moment one finds any of the desirable attributes, their desperation to get into a relationship and fear of losing that person would make them extrapolate the presence of other desirable qualities, too, like, having 1 would automatically make us see 2, whether present or not. This state of mind also makes up overlook the presence of 4, 5, 6, or make us feel that we can compromise upon them, underestimating the potential for displeasure they carry.
But once getting into a relationship, these hard facts become difficult to overlook. After repeated cycles of 'break up', people become more circumspect (about getting into new relations) or lower their expectations. But of course, some require more numerous such cycles. ;)
Surprisingly sometimes, attributes 1, 2 or 3 could be anything--even simply the opposite gender. I hope you get the drift. :)
Take care.
Something similar I wrote some time back:
ReplyDeletehttp://saying-private-yarn.blogspot.com/2009/06/death-of-ghost-of-love.html
Its from the other person's side than your post.
Anyways from comments in my post, it seems no one got it back then :P
Nice post, the picture attached is quite good.
ReplyDelete@ Seema-
ReplyDeleteThanks and thanks.
:)